In March 2018, I was knocked to my knees when Linda, my closest friend, passed away suddenly, while heading home from a vacation. Eleven months later, in February 2019, I was flattened when my little sister, Veneka, passed away, equally unexpectedly. You know how it feels when you are knocked to the ground, and that monster is still sitting on your chest, and someone yells to you to get up. The struggle to standing can take all the energy that you have. You push that monster off of you and, even as you stand, that monster still lurks beside you, trying often to knock you over again. What energy I had left I focused on the functional necessities but I did not have energy for much else. My writing did not fare well. Often I would think about things but, as I do not yet possess the ability to have my thoughts magically transform into writing on a page, there have been many blank pages in my life these last few years.
Though my fingers have been less active, I have had no shortage of thoughts and, when I think, it is about a lot more than financial forensics. When I talk, it is about more than financial forensics. When I act, I do more than financial forensics. So, now when I write, I want to write about more than financial forensics. I have found that, at the core of my thoughts, my conversations, and my actions are the same principles. I want to keep doing that in this space, so we can explore how things like accountability, ethics, and systems are important in various parts of our lives and our work.
I believe that this sharing and these conversations we have, in our small spaces and in our small ways, can indeed alter the face of the world. I am getting out of my head a little bit to share the wisdom I find and to hear the wisdom from you. In this small space of a site, this is a big change so I am, as is human, nervous. However, to quote Babe Ruth, “Never let the fear of striking out keep you from coming up to bat.” And this is where my baseball analogies will stop before I am outed as someone who grew up on rounders and then cricket, before baseball.
I’m up to bat!